Tiny sigh...
Missing my friends overseas...and wishing that well-meaning church people understood that we aren't super-spiritual or amazing people, and don't need special treatment...gah....we are put on a pedestal overseas in certain circles, as we are considered "pastors" and pastors are very highly regarded in the predominantly Christian area of the country where we live. Just want to feel normal and fade in with everyone else - we have spent 2-1/2 years sticking out like a sore thumb!
We had a good laugh to ourselves today as the church we attended this morning had a potluck after the service. One person had brought a tiny pot of rice, and you might guess that having lived in an Asian culture our family has gotten used to eating rice every day at least once. My 3-1/2 year old is the main rice craver of the bunch - he was so excited to hear that there was rice - and the pastor's wife, who was fixing his plate, gave him 2 tiny spoonfuls...the look on his face was priceless. It was funny, too, to see that tiny bowl of rice, when at potlucks overseas there would be at least 6 to 8 huge bowls on the table! I had rice twice over the weekend when we were away from home, and came away disappointed both times...both times it was burnt.
I did stamp today - that is all that makes me feel 'normal' right now - so next time I'll have something creative to share, and instructions for a portfolio card. Sorry to make this a whining entry...but hey, it's my blog, right? Thanks for checking in, and putting up with me!
My heart goes out to you and your family. I'm sure you will be homesick for the rest of your life because it was such an awesome experience overseas. Spiritual living is imbedded so deeply. Eight years ago I moved from the maritime provinces (PEI and Nova Scotia out east), and I still get so homesick, especially at this time of year when I get letters in Christmas cards. It makes me feel like I should be there partaking in the activities that became part of my life. I wish you and your family and happy Christmas season. I understand how hard it can be.
ReplyDeleteI understand how you feel--about feeling that you are not being super-spiritual or amazing. But you and your dh have stepped out in obedience to the HS. That seems amazing to some. And often, the special treatment is because folks want to know how to listen to the HS's wispers and nudges and find the confidence to obey. I often wish myself that I could just walk in the back of a worship service, lift my hands and voice to HIM and then SCOOT! LOL!! But that is not what I am called to right now. YKWIM???
ReplyDeleteI am so glad that you have the gift of stamping. It always makes me feel better, too.
God Bless you in your days on this side of the ocean.
Merry Christmas
~Juliana